____________❤Baby, It's Only You For Me!

2010-01-10T14:43:00.003+08:00

Miracle xD

Walk home from Bishan to Khatib and cabb home from Khatib to Yishun.

super funny but leg is effing pain.

3 more days to my TP. went circuit for prastice today ((=

instrutor bought coffee for me. shit ass tat I can't drink cos I got gastric problem.

but still I manage to finish th coffee -.-"

blogging while having gastric problem and stomache. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

30 more minutes going Bishan.

pass my homework to girlgirl darling"Mr.Zhou.".

P.S. Pardon for my bad English today. I am uber tire cos pass few days only slp for 3 hours a day.

2009-12-22T23:42:00.004+08:00

Charity day! xD

readers, Claudia is back again xD

lots of photo to be uploaded -.- 200 over photos lahs.

I think I'll be randomly pick some photo out to blog and th

rest will be uploaded in facebook!

2009-12-22T17:35:00.004+08:00

effin' Love this song!

it's been so long since I last blog.
sorry for not updating my daily rountine as I have got so many fucking
P & P to do. starting work on 23 Dec to 3 Jan! have got no time for my driving.
WTkk' lahorhs.
actually, I don't know where I gonna start blog.
so many many many things to say -.-"
I guess I shall forget the pass and start blogging tml onwards xD

2009-11-23T17:41:00.008+08:00

If only ... ... ...

If only, if only you were to ask that question again,
I will not hesitate to tell you everything and wad is in my heart
for just that one time of lying to you, I had enough.

you get pissed off easily when my ex msg me.
you get pissed off easily when I didn bother to look at you.
you get pissed off easily when you know I got alot of guys friends msg-ing me.
you get pissed off easily when I never explain a single things to you.
you get pissed off easily when they started to bully me.
you get pissed off easily when you know I fall sick.

for how you treat me, you didn even thought of how hurtful it is to me.
you know you can brighten up my days by just a simple msg.
Is been weeks that we had tiffs and I am still waiting for your message.
Do You Know That?
Is it all my fault or you didn bother to listen to me?
I don't know. What I can say is, since the days you msg me, I know everything is fine again.
bcos of you, I reject his calls, never reply his msg.
I know I did quite well. but is not perfect yet.
for you I will carry on trying! I swear .

2009-11-18T18:56:00.002+08:00

tire -.-

Blog when I got the energy. uber sleepy and tire -.-"

and I MISS HIM! didn msg him for th whole day.

2009-11-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

for you, I moved on

I am so sorry that I can't control my tears.

is all because of him, I cried. I rather he knows nothing than letting him know everything,

why must I lie to him and tell him I got no feeling for him when I already fallen for him?

Is that what I wants? I doubt so.

I know we will be stranger again and I scare that my friends will dislike him.

today is a very x3 bad day for me.

I just need some words from you, and I will carry on.

for you, I continue move on.

is you the one who can motivate me. but everything seem to change real fast.

I know is impossible but why can't I just gave up?

I don't wish to. cause after him, you are the another one who knows what I am thinking.

you understand me, aren't you?

I admit I don't understand you that's why I just need 1 more chance that is given from you.

sorry that I lied to you in the past for telling you I got no feeling for you.

Is it too late for me to tell you?

If you were to ask me that question again, I will definitely say "I do have feeling for you".

I won't hide it but to tell you everything.

calls / sms'es from you really make my day happy.

I don't wish to hide anything from you. but only towards you, I got no courage at all.

What am I supposed to do? teach me please.

2009-10-30T20:56:00.002+08:00

so mothafucking sick of life being controlled.
it's actually makes me more and more miserable & loneliness.
sometimes I am wondering why am I suffering that fucking much where I got no fucking CB freedom.
I am sorry for my words. no-one can uds how I feel.
when I meet him, I've to lie.
when I go his house, I've to lie.
I fucking hate lying but for him I will lie.
he is someone who can motivate me all th while.
I've know what I'll get if I lie and I know what will happen if I go home late.
I don't care! I FUCKING DON'T GIVE A DAMN!
my life has been controlled since April 2009.
I've been crying and thinking why my life has no fun, no entertainment, no freedom.
de only way for me to release stress is to play majong with my aunt.
and now majong-ing is also kana controlled.
no more rounding, no more majong-ing, no more ton-ing, no more freedom.
but I get more LONELINESS & SADNESS.
Fuck it man! what else can I do other than studying & working?
My life is like a piece of shit okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-30T11:32:00.003+08:00

stressssssssss -.-"

Claudia back again to update my daily rountine with a very bad heath now!

sometimes I just feel like giving up.

can someone cope with 3 projects, 3 assignment, driving, schooling,working?

I know I can make it but I just lack of rest.

1 assignment is down (= counting down for the rest of those stuff.

I need him as my motivation. I know I can make it, with him around helping me.

but ............................. forgotten what to type siol.

kept coughing since ytd morning and today having fever.

wtf! need some speedy medication. thanks to th doctor who gave me th medi that I am allergic to.

fuck ass! cos of th medi, I am f*-ing suffering and can't even go to school. whatever it is, patient who is using lappy to blog is going to have a puff right now (= lol.

2009-10-11T12:47:00.008+08:00

Diploma Cert?

I know my blog is rotting! -.-
sorry for not updating as I am very busy this few weeks.
having driving lessons, working, majong-ing, and shopped for household stuffs.
well, I am still sick and not yet fully recover. I need a fast recovery medications for me.
cause I am so excited for school tml. if I am still sick, by then I'm unable to attend
lessons on Monday and I am sure that I will miss a lot of fun.

I do have lots of stuffs to post / blog.
but I don't know where to start from. shit manx!
Should I get a Diploma Cert? ytd I suddenly got an urge on taking
Business Course at BMC Academy or SIM University. I want to study as much as I can.
should I or not?

Dad says : If you want to study, go ahead.

I says : but school fees is ex lahs. and I scare very hard.

Dad says : If you nv try, you will nv know where is your standard and you got 0% in passing
Money isn't a problem. I will pay for you no matter how much you need. Just go study if you wan to.

I says : aiyo. see first lahs. later half way quit school den waste th money and effort. ahbo you give me money do business lorhs xP

Dad says : you very clever hors. what business you wanna do? I will give you a chance to try. If business fail, you can't take money from me. If business still carry on earning money, then go ahead do lorhs.

I says : Kidding lahs. hahaas.

change topic out of sudden.

I says : Pa, when I get my driving licence, you rmb what you promise me leis.

Dad says : huh? I got promise you things mehs? how come I don't know. (looking at phone)

I says : wahssssss. whr got like that de. okay lorhs. I give up taking licence liao. (serious face)

Dad says : ya lahs. I know lahs. your HONDA JAZZ right? if you want that car, I can buy for you. But you have to work for me. go learn account from korkor then help me with my business.

I says : I think think about it lahs. your business not my interest leis. how? (sad face)

Dad says : after you got your licence den say lahs. now still earlyyyyyy.

I really thank god for giving me such a Wonderful Dad xD so happy lahs ((=
nearly got a small accident when I driving.
and what I angry is Instructor kept on grumbling & grumbling. NB lahs!
I called my dad & aunt telling them what happened. both of them also angry.
because of him, my mood for th day is totally like rubbish. cry out when I have my lunch -.-

gonna prepared and out to buy ingredients for my sandwiches and pizza.
blog when I am free xD byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee reader's.

2009-09-22T15:20:00.004+08:00

Yippieeeees =]

Got new phone yesterday! xD
still configuring how to use that 2 phone. superb happy okay! =D

2009-09-16T18:23:00.007+08:00

Select letters from below to see what kind of ppl you are.

Name:
A: you like to drink
B: you like people
C: you are really silly
D: you like to eat
E: you like to play with dogs
F: you are dead sexy
G: you never let people tell you what to do
H: you have good personality and good looks
I: easy to be with
J: people adore you
K: you are wild and crazy
L: everyone loves you
M: best kisser ever
N: best GF/BF anyone could ask for
O: easy to fall in love with
P: you are popular with all types of people
Q: you are a tomboy
R: you are loyal to those who love you
S: crazy
T: awesome kisses
U: you really like to chill
V: awesome in bed
W: you are very broad minded
X: you love sports
Y: best GF/BF anyone could ask for
Z: always ready

ANSWER:
C: you are really silly
L: everyone loves you
A: you like to drink
U: you really like to chill
D: you like to eat
I: easy to be with
A: you like to drink

H: you have good personality and good looks
U: you really like to chill
A: you like to drink
N: best GF/BF anyone could ask for
G: you never let people tell you what to do

H: you have good personality and good looks
U: you really like to chill
I: easy to be with
M: best kisser ever
I: easy to be with
N: best GF/BF anyone could ask for

2009-09-09T22:20:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday DAD xD

big feast today (x dad birthday yeah! with my family and mummy they all xD
shopping for today lurhs. finally I got time for shopping with my mum and sis (=
done with my bithday cake which is design by me.
key with musical instrument.
& lastly I LOVE MY HAIR COLOUR LOTS.
combination of Red ; Brown ; Gold with treatment too! xD

Readers, I've edit this Post again (=
oh yeah, forgot something. hmmmmms, sis friend told my sis that she saw them at hougang.
lol. my sis still shout out so loud in front of my mum lorhs! NB. but luckily she quickly change that topic. (x
and there is still a BIG secret I didn tell my sis.
cause I know she ask who who & who is he. rubbish. anyway months rs ended of what I sent.
I msg-ed him saying I WANT TO BE ALONE & I REALLY HATE STUDYING.
I didn regret doing that. but I hopes he know why I still choose to give up.
reason is simple. I don't like th way he start planning for my future.

2009-09-09T11:42:00.004+08:00

SPECs x(

went for my appointment ytd! gosh, I gonna wear specs soon )=
I don't want & I don't like it lurhs.
having another appointment on 11 DEC. just hope that eyes get better and not worsen.
later gonna order my birthday cake.
is specially design by me xD heart key with piano and volin on it.
and night time gonna order food lerhs. so many things to do )=
sianxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

2009-09-08T03:42:00.000+08:00

Changing New Blogskin By This Week

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2009-09-08T01:25:00.004+08:00

yeahyeah =D

now a stalker ; forever a stalker !
gou gai bu liao chi shi!~
alright, enough huhs (x
later gonna wake up at 7. I left only 5 hours 30 min. thats great.
ask Ben to give me morning call. cause I know sleep like nobody business.
cannot late for th appointment. sianxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx );

why must she step into my life again & again huhs!
she got nothing better to do.?
you live for yourself not me,bitch! get this right okay.

readers, get this right 1st huhs! is not my ex gf. is someone out there nth to do!
lalalalas. waiting waiting.
yup, I decided to live for myself and not baby! cause I really don't like those courses he sign up for me. is so damn it alright.
done with my project today xD
09/09/09 - dad bdae
11/09/09 - korkor bdae
18/09/09 - shushu bdae
19/09/09 - my bdae
23/09/09 - shelton bdae
busy busy busy )x broke broke broke )x
tml shun bian go see my korkor th ah ma at TTSH.

2009-09-02T15:23:00.004+08:00

Pls come, better come! =x

Yesterday is so called not my day uhs! )=
phoned XiaoLong for majong at 1 A.M +. I forget that he got school today lurhs (x
and he say he maybe not coming for my birthday!
WTF. sad lurhs )= sobbx sobbx sehs.
To AKS' XiaoLong, I won't ask you do stupid things lurhs.
impossible for me to ask you do bad things when you still got so many BOSS right. (x
and not to forget, I don't like you to create trouble. ytd things is I say say nia lurhs!
lols. xD and stop shooting me horhs! stupidMONKEY xD

2009-08-31T18:15:00.002+08:00

Hospital... ... ... ...

korkor ah ma is in hospital and I just reach home.
went to SGH with my aunt and grandma. called my sis to pei korkor th ahma.
cause she at TTSH and I am at SGH.

Alex. now you believe me? and is not my fault huhs.
msg Ben & Alex what happen.
also text Chris about my bdae celebration. lols.
he say he will be giving me a present and that is to attend my bdae celebration!
lol. like that also can huh! (x
INLOVEWITHYOU coming too! sweeeeee lurhs. damn miss him (x
he is my bloody asshole okay! xD
but korkor can't come. cos he is going Hongkong for holiday.
my dad, shushu, korkor, shelton, me, 2 vb gals, 3 friends bdae all falls on September.
9, 18, 11, 23, 19, 19 ,23, 20, 21, 29.
busy month )= back later. rushing out to have my buffet dinner with family kin,
my LOVES ones.

2009-08-30T00:53:00.004+08:00

)=

Lastly, they say my birthday majiam Malay people marry
or jiatou.sobbx lurhs.
Is not I want de lurhs. my family kins really v big ma.
like that also my fault. OK lorhs! den you guys better don't come for th "WEDDING"
I don't wan invited you liao luhs =x

2009-08-24T01:20:00.005+08:00

LOVEssssssssss

Days has gone&I'm still alone without you by my side
You're not here with me forever I swear. But again I am asking too much from god.
Is there a need for you to leave my world? That's what I am asking myself everynight .
Every single night I sit at my bed thinking how come you leave me alone&how did love slip away.
I could never get th answer over again & again.
even though you're far far away from me, I can only say- I am here to stay with you.
proofing to you that you'll never be alone.
we are so near but yet is still far apart cause of th walls that block us away.
th other night I thought I hear you crying alone in a corner.
trying to ask me come over to hold & to hug you with th love we used to have.
I can even hear your prayers & feel out hows your feeling were.
I promise I will bear up all your burdens all your unhappy stuff without giving you a single burden.
that's what I can do right now. for you & only you.
Just want you to know how badly I need you when you are not there.
I can bear for you your burdens stuffs and stuffs.
but is there anyone out there to pull me up when I fall again & again?
I kept telling myself I am not alone and you're not alone.
cause that is only th way which can cheer me up when I am deeply hurt.
again I told myself, God has taken away th gift from me & will never return it back to me.
so why just can't I give up?
th feeling was like, thousands or even millions of needles is poking in my heart.
kept telling myself to give up & and continue my life. it is actually easy to say it out. but when you gonna do it, th taste or I shall say th feeling is totally different than saying out.
I swear I only have this kind of feeling towards you and only you.
you let me know how sweet is th taste of th love we used to have.
but can I ask God to return me that special gift of mine to prove to him that I will cherish you?
I doubt so.
as long as you're happy, I will not beg God for returning back that special gift to me.
cause He has given you a special gift who can replace me for life.
don't care about my feeling. just do whatever you wish to do. just treat me as a stranger.
just treat me as nobody to you. you will be happy only if you treat me as nothing.
I know I will feel hurt but that's th only thing I can do for you .
I am not good in everything only a useless bum.
becuase I feel like I am so useless, I don't wish to give you another burden.

2009-08-23T00:41:00.001+08:00

everything is over!
thanks for being there my Loves&Friends xD
can't imagine what happen I don't have you guys.

2009-08-20T15:47:00.005+08:00

~list of people~

grandma ; grandpa

gan dei ; gan ma ; korkor

michelle gugu ; vincent uncle ; darren ; lynn

shushu ; ah man jiejie ; terence ; meimei

shirley gugu ; steven uncle ; shelton ; shendon

mum ; dad ; huixian; tingjun ; tingjiao

ahgu ; ahkim ; gege ; yawen

huirong family

shuhua family

ah koon jigong ; ahpo

shumei dad ; mum

lijigong ; lijimpo

korpo ; laoguzhang

cindy aunty ; ah li uncle ; javier ; 2 sis

suiyan aunty ; ahchun uncle

mummy ; guowei korkor ; jiejie ; zhenwei korkor

2 gugong ; 2 jiejie ; aunty

10 + forlingtang people

sara ; nas ; hairul ; ashraf ; afif ; santi

shan ; ben ; alex ; xavier ; ahhao ; derrick ; peter

weiting ; dorin ; chris ; agnes ; ahhock ; jianyi

yeeting ; lifang ; peiyen ; joy ; amanda ; jieting

gong ah ; xinyi ; pohhan ; bryan ; weirong ; rachel

scarescare ; debra ; christina ; eugenia ; celestine

peixiong ; kairu ; eric ; kaizhou ; raymond

joshua ; jenny ; kelvin ; jaceyln ; jason ; benedict

TengYang ; YeeTew Friends ; GANs ; Yishun Sec 4T1

Yishun VB players ; Central VB players ; West VB players

Dover Ite ; Macpherson Ite ;

LOVEsssssssssss

place : Yishun Blk 736 "open area beside th blk"

time : 7 pm to 11 pm

food : buffet ard 10 dishes (80 pax) vegetarian (10 pax)

2009-08-20T13:12:00.004+08:00

~nauseous day );

Sorry bout yesterday. Claudia had made 10 people worried for her last night.

I am sorry that I can't control my tear.

Promise you guys I'll try not to cry from today onwards.

good news for him x))

everything went v smoothly. nth happen.

I am so damn scare for th past 3 weeks. & ytd I've got a super good news xD

that regarding my future xD

I just want you to have good career ; stay healthy ; be happy.

and I will be contented.

& just becareful in everything you do xD

muchLOVE&MISS ehsssssssssss (=

Claudia need some motivation from x&x

2009-08-18T22:27:00.002+08:00

~back`

On road today (= drive for hour+ & my hand couldn't take it anymore.

used 1 hand to drive. is actually dangerous but I just can't help with it.

instructor advise me book th test date cause I can drive well.

but he don't let me go above 50 lurhs. is damn slow okay!

reader, I only go for 2 lesson and I can book for my test date.

super happy. but I can't get my licence before 19 Sept.

If I've got my licence, I will sure ask him out driving Honda Jazz. that's his fav.

but I do not know did he change his mind on HJ.

I am scare. friday got body checkup again )= so scare of somthing turn bad news.

I confirm faint for sure.

cause this will be th worse if what I scare happens.

2009-08-18T12:02:00.004+08:00

once;again;i'm;... ... ...`

I am so confused )= I don't uds myself anymore.

th feeling is like- I am drunk & forever drunk.

I can't be happy no matter how hard I try.

Kept on telling myself I can do it. But why I can only do it in th morning & noon.

why whenever th sky is dark, I became another Claudia that make me feel so drunk till I don't even uds myself? tell me why?

why is it so easy to forgive & not forgetting those hurt.? why?

I still got alot of question to ask you. I need those answer badly.

even if you give me 1 whole day to ask you those question, I can't finish it.

cause question is not just 1 or 2 or 3.

is actually hundreds , thousands or even millions!

you let me know th feeling of loveee & you also let me know th feeling of hurttt.

which 1 can I choose. Sweet / Pain?

Sweet will make me drown even deeper&hurt will increase th pain in my heart.

I got nth to choose. I can only let th day goes & welcome tml.

keep on telling myself I can't cry. I can't be sad. I can't be angry.

I can only be happy.

cause I know cry ; angry ; sad is not what you want.

I am always coordinating with others to make things perfect.

but did others think for me?

you teach me how to think for others.

you teach me how to be brave when I get bullied.

you teach me how to apologise when I'm in th wrong.

you teach me how to love th one I love.

you teach me how to forgive others.

BUT

you nv teach me how to forget those hurt.

You just leave me alone at a corner & letting me tidy up the aftermath alone.

In your eyes, there is no longer me.

cause I know how much you wish to forget me & treat it as we are only stranger.

I know I am always a burden for you & make you angry.

I tried my best to give in whenever you are wrong.

and you, when I accidently makes misake, there is no chances for me at all.

I don't deserve all this. I am also human. I have feeling too.

Doesn't mean I nv tell you I'm hurt and means I'm fine.

NO. thats not true. I just kept quiet whenever I need you.Keep those hurt in my heart w/o telling you.

cause I know if I tell you, you will be stressful again.

you will be cracking your brains to think of some ways making me happy.

& when you got no more ways to make me happy, you feel angry somehow.

understanding you is my job.no matter how angry you are or sad,

I am always listening to your grievance & try consoling you satisfying you.

this few month I learn alot of things.

Until now I still cannot learn how to forget those hurt.

Can you teach me again? I don't dare to ask for much now )=

2009-08-16T00:46:00.003+08:00

lizardddddddddddddddd~~~~~~~

what lurhs!

my room got a BIG LIZARD )=

shout out v v v loud for help xP mum & dad came in to help me.

half way catching th lizard, younger sis came in & kpo-ing for what has happen.

both of us look like 2 crazy fellow jumping up & down and shout.

hahaas xD

end up didn manage to catch that lizard )= die liao lahs. don't know how to slp tonight.

haish

you let me have the feeling of secure.

but there's nothing much I can do other than giving up.

I know is hard. I need to try my v v best to know whether I can give up not.

f I didn try at all, mean I got 0% of giving up. & if I try, I sill got 50%.

I nv regret knowing you. I swear.

2009-08-13T23:35:00.004+08:00

happyhappy xD`

supposed to meet Shan 5.50 AM at Khatib Mrt.

& sorry )= I've overslept.not purposely de.

didn sleep well last night and also I've been working for continuous 7 day.

& 2 to 3 days work more than 15 hours when I am not feeling well. so sorry.

cause I say I'll gave him a morning call. so scare that he didn wake up cos he work at 6 - 9 AM

& I woke up at 5.45 AM.

Reach Khatib around 6.30! within 1hour, I spent $40+ .

after his work, train-ed to Batok meet his friends den go straight to school.

slack in school for about an hour den head to another place (= 'dad office'

aunt & vincent uncle also at there. I go there for 2 resaon.

1. I lazy to go back home.

2. check th office computer for something.

& yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I f* know who is that 2nd spammer.

don't ever look down on my ability. you still don't me well ok!

if you want to play, I am anything. but think before you do it. you think you can win when you have nothing?

alright, I don't give a damn !

after knowing who's that perpetrator, went to th resting room and have a nap.

everybody thought I've went home lurhs )=

but actually I am sleeping cause I am too tire.

dad wake me up saying that grandfather is going back. & he ask me to go back with him (=

after having our dinner, went to my cousin house for majong (=

& I've win back th money I spent in th morning. hahaas

guessed what.! Shan say he is my lucky star. cos when I meet him den I win money.

LOL xD where got this kind of logic de. next time got majong session sure I go find him before

playing (=

2009-08-12T20:59:00.001+08:00

what am I gonna do?`

deep inside my heart right now I feel so

Confused ; Helpless ; Hopeless !

I really gonna cry out soon. I regret doing something but is too late.

Claudia now feel so SCARE!

& he don't wanna replt my f* msg )=

I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I GONNA DO!

2009-08-12T18:15:00.000+08:00

PAY DAY =]

meet up with Joy and get our pay (=

went AMK HUB meet Ah Hock (her bf) for our lunch.

damn it okay! so many food I want to eat lurhs cause I am super duper hungry.

lastly decided Ichiban Sushi.

after havin my lunch, train back to Yishun & find my aunt they all (=

and not I feel so hungry angry )=

shall blog later. go eat 1st xP

2009-08-07T23:55:00.003+08:00

I'm Sorry.

shall blog a short paragraph today.

like what I've said. meet GanMa & Aunt for breakfast and off to work.

hellos, doesn't mean I work & I am not a student ok! -to that driver.

so f. bored at work today. walk here & there and no customer lurhs )=

msg Ben;Shan;Sweetheart.

2 reply except for 1 idiot fellow.

I REALLY HATE PEOPLE FOR NOT REPLYING.

I can totally ignore you forever & treat you as a stranger.I MEANT IT!

Aunt sent me back to Yishun & we had supper (x

after eating, went to see other ppl sintua cos they just came back from yew keng.

I'm so interested in Sintua things now a day xD but i can't stay too long cos tml gonna work for more than 14 hours )= confirm v v tire.

I'm sorry to Ben for giving him my attitude this few days.

I don't know what happen to me but I guessed I'm too tire & stress.

cos got work & have to settle birthday things.

ZhiWei korkor not in SG on 17 Sept )= cause he going HONGKONG / TAIWAN.

wahssssssssssssssssssssssss; I WANT GO ALSO )=

2009-08-06T22:52:00.003+08:00

5Xs sick

reached home (x

so damn it. bored till i msg people & they didn reply. f. lurhs.

I HATE IT okay!

now headache;sore throat;flu;cough;keep vomiting.

going to die lerhs lahs )=

busy thinking about my bdae thingys. & I don't like to planning at all )=

cos I am really suck at planning my own things .

will bot be blogging this few days due to work & planning stuff.

haish

2009-08-04T00:15:00.004+08:00

v v v bad gastric pain)=

Is so hurt & I can't even blog properly okay!

after eating durians, my gastric not feeling well.

WT* lurhs. forget it! later ask my friend drive me to clinic.

went to sch today & yes, wad i guessed is correct.

Shan didn go sch. & I am so so so bored while waiting for that F* to finish his food.

thank uhs! for letting me wait so damn long.

train-ed down to Yewtee & find my Gong,Didis,XinYi.

long long time didn have fun with them lerhs )= just miss it so much lurhs.

back to Yishun around 7.30. lucky grandpa&grandma still at home.

ask grandpa about th restaurant thingys and he make fun of me. sobbx lurhs.

aunt say we have to go there and see th menu & nego for th price I tink.

th date will be mostly 17 September 7.30 PM to 11PM xD

can't wait for that day ok (=

yup, number of ppl increase like what I've said. 150 ppl. (=

imagine how big my family is.

2009-08-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

02.08.09

first of all, Happy Birthday to my younger sis "tingjiao".

rush down back to Yishun after I've finish work.

I hate taking cab. tho is more convenience but I just hate it.

use to take cab with him wherever we go.

but for now I hate it bcos some driver is so damn naturalistic.

they can happy happy go when they know you are waiting for cab.

& they wait till double charge.

when I am totally in a rush they played stunt.

lucky we still manage to reach my aunt house on time.

half way back to Yishun, called Shan & ask him acc me chat.

cos Claudia Feels Bored!

while I am smoking & eating & waiting for Wanting dad & walking back home, still on the phone.

when I reached home then we end th call.

cause he got sch tml at 12 & he didn mange to get his rest for 2 days lerhs.

I just feel bad for not letting him sleep early lahs.

So Sorry. xiaolong th owner'Shan.

2009-08-02T01:07:00.002+08:00

thanks` myLOVE;ONES

I really appreciate what you guys did xD

Claudia promise that she will be happy without any pretending.

after that day, she is finally awake. can't imagine how silly am I crying for more than 12 hours just for him. lol. I don't dare to think. It was like a joke to me.

slowly slowly giving up on him. cause he is my past & not my future anymore.

aunt know I cried & heartbroken hell lots.

she talk to me & giving me advise.

I really love my life now!

Got so many people worried&concern for me.

I Super LOVE You Guys (x

REALLY!

I can't imagine life without my family kins & friends.

to you I may seem like th old past me.

but for others, I am strong enough to stand up.

I don't wish to be a loser that beg for patch after breaking up.

is like,so shameless & throw girls face lurhs.

pardon me if I did say something that is wrong.

2009-07-30T15:20:00.003+08:00

deep inside my heart`

deep inside my heart I am not happy .

Is true that all along I am pretending to happy cause I don't want

anybody to worry for me.

& today,right now this moment, I can't hold on any longer.

while blogging & I am crying badly.

I swear & vow to god that I only love him.

trying to be happy all th while, joke around everyday just to make myself happy.

I don't mind even if is 1 sec, I am still content.

memories is all around, nv once gone.

Does anyone know me?

I guessed no. cause I'm hiding here & there all along.

everytime when I gonna fall, I'll recall what I promise him.

by then I stand up again.

but this time round is diff. I wanted to talk things out with my parents.

Can I?

they definitely say "go for someone else"

but they don't know how I feel. Where are they when I am actually real down?

why can't they uds me. Why?

I thought everybody has the right to choose someone they love.

but why is it that I only got a choice & thats to GIVE UP.

I don't want to! I really don't want.

to make my parents happy, I act infront of them.

being their daughter once again. but deep inside my heart I NV ONCE GIVE UP!

Nv once )=

readers,

you guys will nv know my feeling right now I swear.

can you die for someone whom you really love?

I dare to say I DARE TO SACRIFIED MY LIFE!

cause without that uncle, I am not able to survive in this world anymore.

& I will not be proving to myself & everybody that I LOVE HIM.

changing to a better girl; to a better ex; to a better gf is hard.

BUT I DID IT!

I prove it to all my family kins & yes I DID IT.

but so what if I did it.

I've betrayed my heart & feeling on him.

I just don't want my family kins or anyone to get hurt.

so I've been betraying my feelings for million or even billion years.

I betray myself for th sake of everybody.

but did they ever put themself in my shoe?

I SWEAR & VOW & DARE TO SAY, NO!

I can't be selfish to hurt people surrounding me.

& I have only got a way.

that's is to betray my feeling & betray my heart forever.

so that they can be happy & my loves ones still th same for now.

as for me, continue pretending that I am happy & content just like th past.

I know is hard to act & pretend that I am alright.

like what i said, for th sake of everybody!

I WILLING TO DO IT.

2009-07-29T23:26:00.003+08:00

(=

well, my sickness will nv go & there comes a new pain.

wake up bathe lerhs rush out & head to Habour to service phone.

trained down from Habour to SengKang. been so f* long I didn go there lerhs )=

& from SengKang to Admiraty.

dad meet me at there & drive me in to Woodland Terrace.

not staying more than 30 min. cause I've to rush back to Yishun.

&I accidently let out my feeling today. now everybody is worried for me.

I'm Sorry.

cause this time round I also can't help myself anymore.

I wish I can shout out loud.

real loud till everybody in this world know what am I thinking.

I know is impossible & I know thats childish.

but other then shouting out my feeling to th sea, to th moon;to th star,

I don't know what else can I do.

2009-07-27T03:23:00.002+08:00

On / Off feeling

feeling so painful now )x

out of sudden my heart is burning & feel v giddy.

what happen exactly huhs?

this kind of feeling has been following me for th whole week

& is On / Off those type.

is it something gonna happen to him?

I hope so not.I just wan him to be safe thats all.

guessed I have see doctor again to get some pills.

goodnight readers (x

2009-07-26T00:15:00.004+08:00

Pissed Off!

Why can't people just shut their mouth and concentrate on wad they are doing now!

Is It Fun To Make ppl Pissed off & Flustrated?

fcuking hate ppl to make me angry when I am sick&is real sick.

Are you guys sick in your mind?

cos in one day, there are 5 ppl make me hell pissed off.

&bcos of that, I almost fail my OJT test.

but I am safe (= I HAVE PASS!

I shall look out for my attitude again.

sweetheart let me drive his car to Jalan kayu for supper.

alright I know I can't go any further, just stop making fun of me alright?

yeah.his next car out is RX8. I swear I gonna drive that car.

cos he intend to modify it(=

but Honda Jazz is still my fav xD I gonna modify my own car next time .

our promise ^^

I just let out all my anger in driving.

sweetheart & friends scare i kanna caught.so they look out for TP till like siao one

hahaas xD

okok.I promise I'll only drive with instructor beside me.

&rmb what you said to me.

Wherever I want go, you will lend me ur car with you around.

so my next destination will be Changi V. -to eat Nasi Lemak & Roti John.

thanks to some of my friends who trying to make me smile during work.

at least I am alright now,so no worry kay (=

last but now least;

My Leg Is Hurt & So Pain.

rush out for work today & wear wrong shoe out.

I shall go for Body Spa & Leg Massage when i got my pay (x

who wanna join me? looking for ppl to pei me lurhs.

& also facial. (x

shall off to slp & blog tml.

cause my head is in a great pain since ytd. and today is more worse.

nights- sweetheart,lovers,readers;friends (x

2009-07-25T01:47:00.002+08:00

Thanks xD

finish drama-ing (=

still v awake. how? is there any way for me to sleep early.

I just hate night time.cause my mind will think super lots.

& now having gastric pain cum v giddy )x

feel so weak right now. no strength;no mood!

readers; I Hate People Suspecting Me Okay!

thanks to Ben & Shan, I am alright just now.

but few hours later, I am moody again!

What is this all bout huhs?!

working later on!I don 't think I got th mood to work.

&lastly,don't think I am that fcuking stupid.

To Her!

don't you think you got a selfish thinking?

you only want me to stay at your side.

when I go out with relative, you're not happy.

I can't go out with friends lerhs & you still wanna lock me up.

you urself got problem with them & not me.

so pls let me have at least a bit of freedom & free time for them kay!

I appreciate that lots.

2009-07-24T21:29:00.003+08:00

Sick

Having gastric pain now & it seem like something gonna happen again.

Why do I have that alarm? is it bcos of him or my love ones?

sorry, I am not going home again tonight )=

I just wanna be alone.

thanks for th call x) "Ben"

Y am I missing him now & then?

Why why & why?

I don't uds myself anymore. I am sorry if I've hurt anyone );

I gonna get back to myself soon. cause its a must for me to do that.

sorry if I cause any inconvenience to you )=

I don't wish to. real sorry )=

2009-07-24T10:34:00.006+08:00

It's Only You )=

now is 3.15 am & I just woke up cause of th nightmare I've got.

I Am Sorry Once Again)=

I Swear I gonna Control Myself So That I Won't Irritate You!

th dream is so scary that I shouted for help in th midnight of th night where my grandparent is in their lala'land.

th dream was abt my soul has been suck away by devils

& that th devils is controlling my body.

I know is just a dream but what I can say is, more than 60% of my dreams will come true.

even if it took years to appear in real life.

Do You Guys Know I Can See Dirty Things?

Do You Guys Know I Kana Dirty Things Before?

yeah, you guys don't know but in fact is true.

that is why I am v particular in those dreams )x

He Should Know This Well

and thank godness there is someone for me.

I know we are impossible & I am now trying my best to be fine every single day.

Just Tell Me Why.

Why Is It So Painful When You Have To Force Yourself Leaving Your Loved Ones?

Have You Wondered ; How Much You Meant To Me?

2009-07-24T01:47:00.001+08:00

Freezing =.=

is so cold & freezing lurhs! air-con is facing me for nearly 2 hours lerhs.

I know I shouldn't be sleeping in air-con room cos of my health.

but I've got no choice =x cos of my cousin lurhs.

and I swear I confirm fall sick tml cuase I sleep in air-con room ):

dono why whenever I sleep in air-con room,th next day i will be v v v sick.

and is 100% chop that I'll fall sick.

prepared for tml bad health lerhs =x

shall blog till here. tml baby coming grandma hse in th morning.

I've to sleep early if not tml I'll have attitude problem again (=

nights readers! xxD

2009-07-23T23:32:00.001+08:00

Pig for th day =X

nothing much to blog todayy );

cause today got no strength & head spinning like nobody business!

again I Am Sick )=

cuse of headach, my whole body muscle is in great pain

& it makes me feel so tire till I sleep for 5 to 6 times today.

which means,24 hours- I've used more than 15 hours in sleeping (=

2009-07-23T01:46:00.000+08:00

Shoppinq Day xD

readers- I'm alright now.

finish chatting with Shan. & I feel better now (=

when can I really train well in shooting people?

cause Xiaolong keep shooting me since i called him till we hanged up th phone.

sobbx lahs.

cried just now. but awhile later ok.

thanks to him for telling me something & I go believe it.

wad to do, I trust ppl easily & because of my this weak point,

my loved ones use that point to betray me & make me sad.

haish. I guessed I have to change that bad point lerhs .

will not be sleeping tonight cos of my gastric pain.

shall blog till here!

2009-07-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

sadness day for now!

& i hate my stomach lots fucking right now!

stomach not feeling well since ytd. and i thought it will be fine today.

think I guessed wrong!

went to IKEA today & the food at Giant taste like shit man.

I swear I will not go there eat again.not even a single time!

staying at cousin house today cos

HE GOT CHICKEN POX xD

hahaas. ok lahs. don't laugh lerhs lahs (=

&now he is right beside me looking what I blog for today (=

another reason I want stay is because

I Don't Want To Be Sad Anymore.

supre duper fucking MISS HIM okay )=

but I guessed he do not know cause I don't wanna let him know

"I still got feeling for him"

its been years & I know I hardly can put down those hurt&memories )=

2009-07-22T11:56:00.000+08:00

Shoppinq Day xD

damn freaking sleepy right now!

sleep around 3 plus & wake up at around 6.30.

having attitude this morning. cause I ask my mum buy bread for me

& she buy for me mee hoon,egg,chicken wing.

How much I wish I can eat kaya butter bread right now.

after giving my attitude, went to my room have some rest .

cause ltd going see baby & shop with Steven Uncle&ShirleyAunt!

fuck off to those ppl who keep msging me in th morning!

except for Ben,scarescare,HIM,shan,joy, my aunt.

I dislike people who disturb my dream ok!

I can be v v v nasty if you were to wake me up or disturb my dream!

and I don't fucking care who are you ok!

even if you were my parents,maid,relative,teacher,friends,boyfriend etc-

I also don't fucking give a stupid damn on you.

cause I know my family kins won't wake me up&they know what will happen if they do make me pissed off.

so,kindly msg me after 2. if there is something imp, I will reply ur msg or return ur calls asap.

readers,friends,peeps! whoever got my number,anything to tell me- msg me aft 2.

I do appreciate if you guys stop morning call or msg me in th morning.

if you guys dont wish to get nasty words from me, den don wake me up.!

I MEANT WAD I SAY!

Don't fcuking test my forbearance I am warning you now.

2009-07-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

Is There Miracle...... ?

I am happy to receive his msg ok xD

msg msg msg,chat chat chat! & again I need to go off again.

can't msg him as I'll be super busy later )x

alright, is ok for me.

Will Miracle Fall On Me?

yeah, I super duper hope so lahs.

& my bdae is less than 2 months time.

hope everything can be arrange on time (x

as I mention in my previous x5678....... post that who I will invite xD

How much I wish I've got a surprise from HIM!

pray hard for it I guessed (x

House-Warming on 2August2009! will not be free )x

sobbx sobbx lahs. somemore got my favourite steamboat.

ehsssssssssssssssss,you guys must wait for me horhs!

will not be long lahs. around 11 plus I'll reach Yishun xP

hahaas.

play with baby today! he is getting bigger&bigger day by day.

& I got no strength to carry him lorhs )= haish.

must train liao. &he have got a sweet room=WinneThePooh leis.

MISS my Baby'sweetheart-Xadius Chew Yong Shan so much )=

2009-07-21T14:59:00.000+08:00

LeaveMeAlone'WillYou?

just leave me! as long as I'm concerned, just fcuk off!

You make me Insane;Crazy;Mad;Miserable.

I am seriously for what I've said to you. Please just leave me.

kindly treat it as I didn know you before.

Do You Wish To See Me Fall Again?

nope.you yourself answered No.

So why are you trying to step into my life?

Just Tell Me Why! &WHY?

I am who I am;

You are who you are;

She is who she is;

Please don't compare us & Don't even say that I know you well alright!

in fact I don't rmb single things bout you anymore.

&fcuk that instructor as I won't mention his name.

45 minutes of lesson cost me $125. FUCK YOU lahorhs. Nabei.

Whatever lahs.

I don't fucking give a damn!

Aunt recommended me instructor & I am gonna change instructor soon.

th benefit is that instructor know my grandfather&also he is a Traffic Police.

if I got him as my instructor, there is higher chance for me to pass everything (x

so currently I am waiting for my aunt to get for me his contact number .

thanks to my aunt yeah! xD

2009-07-20T00:43:00.000+08:00

I am alright now!

continue with ytd topic.

sorry peeps for my emotional problem )=

& I'm Alright Now! xD

surprising right. yeah,I am quite surprise too actually.

hmmmmms, didn have my test ytd.

they change my date to next week! fcuk siollllllllll!

when can i have my OJT test.sobbx.

I am real "sotong cum bodoh" girl lahs.

msg "ang kong siao" till I walk wrong way back home.

can't be blamed (= concentrate on his msg =X hahaas. JKJK.

and now is 12.47 am. have my shower now and blog later x)

2009-07-19T00:59:00.000+08:00

I want to shout!

skipped all th topics today except for my feeling.

I am down! Totally Down. no words can express my feeling right now!

)= what am I gonna do? I MISS HIM SO MUCH.

i can get to see him but I waste this opportunity.

Am I Silly? I've use up to 1 years plus of effort ok!

and is just gone in a sec. is just all gone.

th feeling of mine right now is worse than dying.

I MEAN IT.

blog when I feel alright )=

is already 1 hours & i can't stop my tears from rolling off.

cry so badly till my eyes vision so blur&getting serios )x

i don care. I cry bcos of him. is worth it!

2009-07-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

Xuete ........

just came back from Temasek Poly (=

went there to support guys & gals polite game.

& I am not playing.

like what I've said, my knee problem&now added 1 more thing."Blur Vision"

When can I really have my Brain Scan & Eyes Specialist?

get irritated by my eyes hell lots ok )=

here come tml!

Having OJT test tml. a bit scary kay.

cause I scare I do something wrong & straight away FAIL )=

Wish me good luck for tml yeahhhhhhhhh! xD

&now stomach so crampp. sobbx lahs.

I am suppose to do my project right now but I am blogging (=

shall end here & continue with my project on animation.

nights peeps xD

2009-07-15T19:28:00.001+08:00

thROAD day xD

pardon for my typo error.

half way doing my project & notice that blur vision getting stronger.

& guessed what.

I bluff 7 ppl by sending a msg. (x is actually a friends msg.

finish blogging have to go out eat. xD

super hungry. & i gonna lose weight soon.

for th sake of 21st Birthday.

drive on road today. almost knock th front car.

cos i didn tell my instructor i having eyes problem.

& i thought it was much better but i am wrong.

I am not gonna praise myself but somehow I feel like

I'm A Fast Learner xD

instructor also having that thinking too (=

he went to buy KFC & sitting beside me eating.

he is not scare of my driving cos i make it v safe.

only when I am turning right.

alright,blog when i am free (=

off for my dinner.

2009-07-15T04:26:00.000+08:00

Project xD

now is 4.27 am! & I am still doing my project.

actually th project deadline is August 15. but I wish I can finish asap before my vision get worse.

went to sch today (= joy friend came to sch & meet her (x

and after taking my logbook, shopping with my Aunt.

Eat & Talk & Shop & back home together. xD

not in a good mood cos when I wanted to take a nap, baby ask me to play with him.

& that it! I play with him, bring him down walk walk.

reach home at ard 9.15 & start doing project till now (=

Don't think i can sleep cos ltd 1pm I've got my driving lesson.

Feel that I have a v v v v v wonderful family xD

some of my friends do envious. but please don't (=

cause you have a good family too! xD

th only difference is th angle u look in it (x

To: XiaoLong

Don't be sad.

everyone have to gone tru relationship problem.

there will be hurt,sadness,sweetness,&bitter taste of love.

depends on which one you got it.

Don't hurt your body when you are sad or angry.

cause afterall body still belong to you & no-one will feel th pain for you.

we can only uds how you feel.

What Are Friends For?

To be there when you need them (=

i'm sorry that I'm not a joker who will make ppl laugh.

if you need a pair of ears, I'm alright.

but don suddenly angry or wad. cos i know you're a GOOD JOKER

& nv give out attitude de.

Be Happy (x Everything will be fine ok.

2009-07-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

8September2009

today went to polyclinic to get th letter from doctor.

8sept'09 will be the day I going Tan Tock Seng for th Brain Scan

& also Eyes Specialist )=

Wednesday I've got a practise in circuit / carpark.

I LOVE DRIVING. but bcos of my eyes,I might have to give up.

Letter wrote:

No Driving

No Contact Lens

Wear Sunglasses

)= I am now aiming for Dior Sunglasses ok!

& I can't drive. real sad bcos licence is my 21st Birthday Wish for myself.

shop with Joy & her 2 friends at bugis.

& I saw 1 guy who is in my friendster list. I just can't recall his name lurhs )x

whatever, anyway is nothing to me.

grandparents was quite worried about my eyes now)=

sobbx.

I Just Don't Want Them To Worried For Me.

2009-07-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

avoiding YOU.

just reach home after my OJT.

waiting for th day "end of July", I get my $1000.

End of Sept $600+ to $1100+

& end of October get my $2000+. cool man (=

but still I gonna save up for the future used.

cos I don't wanna live with no money!

It has been a tough live for me staying with him.

cause he don't have th thinking of saving money. only know how to spent.

that is why his life now is so terrible and I am lucky that we broke off.

I can't survive with someone who got no future thinking.

tml not going sch.

dad drive me & my sis to polyclinic (=

she is sick & I am sick too.

have to get letter from th doctor to go hospital for Brain Scan.

can't wait for tml ok!

cause I get v v v irritated when I can't see things clearly.

& bcos of my eyes, I'm unhappy for th past few days.

2009-07-12T00:40:00.000+08:00

suddenATTACK!

Readers;homed-sweet-home!

finally lahorhs.

sudden attack when I am having my OJT.

out of sudden things is so blur that i can't even see clearly & also forget to take medi too.

haish. problematic gal lahs!

today gastric not feeling well. maybe past few days sick den nv eat much.

mostly puke out th food I've eaten.

slowly slowly recover bahs (=

Don't Worry For Me Too. I am fine.

2009-07-11T11:03:00.000+08:00

If You Don't Know Me!

Peeps & reader. I do appreciate that you guys read my blog.

but please take note.

I am not those who will write others affairs out unless they betrayed me or spam my blog.

if you were my friends, you guys should know what exactly happen.

& if you're not, please check it out first.

even my friends also can't tolerate what she write ok.

curse my grandparent & play till family member.

do you still think is my fault?

if you still think is my fault, then I got nothing to say.

cause you are not putting yourself into my shoe.

everybody know I hate people cursing & played till my family relationship or kinship.

If you does, den i shall pay you back double of what I can do.

2009-07-11T10:43:00.000+08:00

thatsGREAT xDD

I am so happy (x

2/3 of th procedures in driving have successfully passed (=

left 1 more stage.

I think I really spend alot in that piece of Cert. is alright-cause IS WORTH IT!

like what I've said. went down to my dad place.

everybody including dad's worker was surprise that I go there

dad was surprise too. I went there just to tell him th good news.

but I missed th trip to polyclinic.

cause after bbdc thingys, time is already 3 plus.

by th time i reach Yishun Polyclinic, I think is closed.

eventually I just missed th trip to polyclinic & headed to my dad place.

grandfather send me home together with 1 AUNTY.

dinner at my grandma house den went for another dinner at 748.

aft 748, we went to Woodland Centre fetch someone.

& lastly back to 756. they bought 20 kg of durians to SG.

I know I am sick and can't eat durians.

but I am really v v v sorry. is my favourite )=

I just can't control myself for being gluttonous.

have to take my medication & off to my bed.

2009-07-09T23:43:00.000+08:00

I'm Not That sick )x

just reach home x)

today went to consult doctor. a super duper bad news that almost make my tears rolled down.

I've been having double vision for 2 weeks plus.

and past few days head spinning like nobody business.

I have no appetite too.

&doctor tell me 1 news that I almost faint.

he write in letter for me to go polyclinic.

aft polyclinic, I've to go hospital for a Brain Scan.

Doctor afraid that there is TUMOR in my brain.

cos the symptoms is out.

I am not that old. How can that be?

lied to my grandparents that I having minor headach.

main reason is I don't want them to get worried for me.

cause I know I'll be fine next few days.

double vision-hav to stop wearing contact lens for th time being & see how it goes.

&for tml, schedule will be tight for me.

have to wake up early den go BBDC.

aft BBDC, have to go polyclinic. & aft polyclinic clinic,have to go dad company.

cos his worker getting rebellion.

go there and spot check.if they really do something that is wrong,thats it.

pray hard that I won't scold you guys like nobody business.

&don't think I got no right to scold you ok!

2009-07-09T13:52:00.000+08:00

DoItWithPride!

Bitches; if you gonna spam me again, advise you to put your real fucking name & do it with pride.

Please kindly be proud of your own name.

don't ever feel proud of using other people name alright! SPAMMER. booooooo!

"Low Class lil Ignorant Brat"

Don't you feel shame of being such nuisance brat?

& don't think I don't know that you are viewing my profile! bodoh.

Peep! don't blame me for having my attitude problem alright?

hahaas.

had a v v v bad nightmare last night. didn't really sleep well.

and what I hate th most is -Claudia is REAL sick now!

;head spinning like nobody business

;puke out food that I've eaten

;blur vision is getting strong

;knee is pain again.

lucky I don't need to go school x)

can rest at home till Sept. Good right? but actually is staying at home doing 2 project.

1 is animation & another one maybe MTV.

2009-07-06T17:16:00.000+08:00

&you're?

gluttonous me! eat durians for breakfast end up diarrhoea.

&bcos of that, I cab down to sch. It cost me $25 ok!

NB lahs.eateateat only. next time must control myself from being gluttonous!

& I mean it.

Weirong&PohHan&Byran came to meet me & nut at clementi.

&Xinyi came to meet Nut x)

saw 1 guy who is v v v familiar to me but I just forget his name.

Impossible for me to forget him.

I confirm know him from some Li Tao de ppl.

next time when I go Clementi, I will ask his name for sure (=

not flirt or hong guys lahorhs.

he is really my friend but I forget who liao. )=

He is another ang kong siao lorhs.

2009-07-06T00:00:00.002+08:00

Fuck th Test ...............

"xue te" next week got a test for my OJT!

WTF, & I am still blur with lots of things lorhs.

but people over there is really v nice & helpful (=

they will keep on helping me with my stuff when I don't know what to do.

& thanks to Wanting parents xDD

now is 12.07 am & i gonna wake up super duper early.

bodoh lahs.cos of th stupid logbook.

& My Shoe Is V Special! 1 & only designed (x

upload th pic when I am free alright. hahaas.

and as usual! discuss with my parents&aunt they all.

my 21st birthday will held at restaurant. buffet for 100 people (x

& that gonna make me broke!

is alright. 21st BIRTHDAY leis xP

th date is either 18 Sept or 19 Sept.

peeps, make sure you come with min of $200 de present horhs! xP "jkjk"

People who is invited are:

- my gans (x

- yewtee friendds

- VB friends

- dover friends

- yss friends

- relatives&cousin "cannot be counted,too many"

- dad workers

- sis friends

- Alex;Jieting;Ben;ang kong siao;JianYi;AhHock

- outside friends

still got somemore ok!

sorry if i forget to mention your name (x

2009-07-05T03:17:00.000+08:00

STOPSTOPSTOP'willyou?

I am no longer myself anymore )=

road is poorly light-up&I just can't find th way back.

I making trying my v best to be as cheerful as I can.

but is that me? I doubt so.

I don't uds myself anymore not even a single point.

you lead me to a place where th path is poorly lighted.

&now you expect me to continue th journey alone!

you fucker ass! you think is easy?

plsssssssssssssssss,I can't even get rid of you.

stop all your fucking thinking.

JUST STOP EVERYTHING!

your things I don't wish to know&I do appreciate that u don contact me.

cos I scare I will go back to th last time.

crying for you;worried for you;thinking of you.

Do you know how much effort I put,to make me forget you?

Do you know how much effort I put,to make me hate you?

Do you know how much effort I put,to make me ignore you?

No.You don't know anything! you only know shit.

bcos of th poorly lighted-up uneven path, I choose to turn back&continue walking w/o you by my side.

I Do Hate You But The Moment I Think Of You,

All The Effort I Put Just Gone In A Sec.

2009-07-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

BitchesTalkShit

BitchesTalkShits! &yes, YOU ARE THE ONE!

homed sweet home ehsssssss (x

have my hair done today & Sakae with sis&terence xD

head to my aunt new house. & is almost 3/4 done.

real full right now! eat&eat&eat-slp&slp&slp.

gonna be a pig sooner or later. & i bet that scares alot of people =)

as for my hair, not really like it cos of the outcome colur.

but just hope *******will like it xP

no more slacking. tml OJT; sunOJT; monSCHattachment.

sobbing lahorhs.

&someone special msg me.

I'm sorry. I dont wish to get hurt again.

I don't even have feeling on you lerhs.

nope.even 1% also don't have. and i mean it.

my answer to you is actually nothing to you.

so why must you do that again&again&again?

if you think I'll sacrified for you, th ans is NO.

I know you are not th one for me&why can't you just let me go?

just kindly stop making me confused.

cos i know wad I want in my life.

&that person is definitely not you i swear!

hey you bodoh ass!

stop making us laugh can?

you know what. th moment you make someone laugh,

everything will be erupted.

so kindly stop all your jokes & we will be v thankful to you xD

hahaas.

2009-07-03T13:20:00.000+08:00

HappyDay!

Joy -Afterall you're still with him xD I'm happy ok! (=

Xiaolong-Don't tell anyone I sell fish de leis x) shy lurhs. hahaas.

Ben -Sorry that I can't help much )x

Jieting-I'll try to take a photo w/o makeup xD

Daniel-Sorry, you're not th one for me! I appreciate it if you give up on me.

Benji-I can't meet you. not free on that day lurhs )= other days?

BitchesTalkShit ok! (= wad is th point of spreading hearsay bout me?

you know anything? Yes! is true you know NOTHING.

uneducated brat! you are just an ant to me, ok!

i can easily compress you with my finger&thumb.

i wont be that cruel cos ants have lives too!

u really deserve no respect from us cos u're a shammer&sham urself hell lots!

don't think too highly of urself. just admit that you're jealous.

if not,pls kindly stuck your thumb into your mouth & suck it like a baby does.

to stop yourself from talking nonsense&making yourself like a clown!

stop acting like you're so so so fucking popular! Ignorant Kid.

just shut your bloody stinky mouth & continues with ur uneducated life.

&you think you're are richer than me?

what about your family background huhs?!

you don't even have th rights to say anything when you have nothing!

you're just only a hybrid brat! just shut-up when you're not pure!

bloody hybrid brat you stinky whore!

pardon me for those words that i have used (x

2009-07-02T13:15:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday!

th bade boy name "Terence Ng"

we are super duper & there th food is finally serve.

bodoh! everybody just eat like some kind of hungry ghosts lurhs.

too full that i ca't even breath.

feel much better after puking out th food.

& out of sudden, I am not feeling well again.

haish )=

2009-07-01T13:09:00.000+08:00

HappyDay!

only 1 week plus didn meet up with JOY.

meet her today & collect our pay. got a feeling that it has been a v v v long time

since we last met up (=

slack with her at Yishun together with her friend"Alan".

long long time didn slack & ytd we talk alot xD

Topic:

Temple things

Relationship things

His things

Guys! please be a gentleman & don't let us look down on you.

don't ever ruin my friend reputation by telling your friends that she is ur gf etc.

cuase I finally know wad kind of "Gentleman" you are!

you're so worse than my boyssssssssss ok. We Regret Lots Ok

2009-06-29T21:15:00.000+08:00

Dead Shit

feeling real dead now.

head spinning since morning & puke all food that I've ate!

sicksicksick. WTH is that huhs.

I'm so disappointed with myself today.

How Can That Be? I really don't understand.

nothing much else you can do to let me forgive you!

I Am Serious With It.

so kindly just give up that thoughts of your's. Thank!

cos I choose be myself.

tml going BBDC & head to company to get my pay with Joy&Wanting.

though is not much but still it helps (=

& now I am heading to my lala-world x)

2009-06-28T13:38:00.000+08:00

worse hairstyle!

th ever WORSE HAIRSTYLE i ever had!

regret cutting my hair )= now i don even dare to step out my house ok!

feel v giddy & no strength at all. attitude also v v v bad today.

maybe becuase im falling sick soon i guessed.

vomitted food that I've eat. wahsssssssssssssssssss, feel so

"Sick&Tire&Moody"

wanna watch Drag Me To Hell (=

after we break up, i nv go for horror movie lerhs.

cause he don't like it.

blog will be update later.

going to style my fucking hair =.="

2009-06-27T14:14:00.000+08:00

busy x3!

been busy since Monday.

& phewwwwwwwwww, lucky today no OJT. can nua awhile.

have to go temple after i blog. shagggggggggggg man )= lols

oh ya, grandfather op finish and h is back home on 25 (=

having lots of fun with relative&korkor at Changi Hospital Lobby.

hey hey, i still get some scolding ok!

cos i didn slp for more than 36 hours & grandma scare i fall sick.

Sobbx-is not i don wana slp. scare when i sleep,no-one can wake me up.

ton 1 days only, my face look so so so pale ok. is bcos I AM REAL TIRE.

tml going BBDC. hope everything will be fine for me (=

have a sweet dream last night. lols xD

dream of B_____* hahaas

& today went for eyes test. yeah! I Dont Need To Wear Sppec!

but they advise me to see a doctor. th internal part of my eye may have problem.

WTH lahorhs! awhile bone specialist den now eyes specialist.

stupid body of mine leyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

2009-06-20T01:34:00.000+08:00

LOVED.....

I❤HIM

Xadius Chew Yong Shan

a special gift from

Xavier Chew & God

Always remembered by Claudia Ng

2009-06-19T21:34:00.000+08:00

muchLOVE*MISS

I MISS EVERYBODY )=

2009-06-19T00:35:00.000+08:00

HIMHIMHIM!

IMISSHIM

controlling my feeling everyday );

terri-horrible feeling

2009-06-18T14:18:00.002+08:00

Oh Really?

SPAMMER! -are you gonna say she is better than me in vball?

wad bout you? are you trying to say you are LOUSY.? (=

plsssssssssss kindly go ask her

1. Did she play for North Zone in Sec 1 to Sec 4?

2. Did she play for CC?

3. Did she play for Youth Cup?

4. Did she play for Under 18?

5. Did she play for Under 21?

6. Did she ever get a jersey during secondary sch days?

If you were to say she is better than me, den she should have play for North Zone etc.

but did she?! hahaas

you say she is better than me; so y didn she play for North Zone.

if you want to help her & spam my blog,
JUST FUCK OFF! __

no point at all. get fuck by my friend&bring guys back when parents not at home.

u are saying that I am a bitch, den her? SLUT cum BITCH?

get fuck by my friend. lols, come on, they know each other not more than 1 week plsssssss!

all along i didn say I am pretty. you urself put words into my mouth lurhs.

aiya! 1 BIG WATERMELON only. is true that i admit wad they say bout her (=

if you want to say me, go & look into th mirror and ask urself

"ARE YOU CHILDISH?"

bodoh lahs, parents nv teach you wad to say huh?!

or your family poor till can't give you better education izzit?

2009-06-15T20:53:00.000+08:00

outting........

K BOXing today!

happy siol. finally i can relax myself (=

past few month busy with

Training

Driving Lience thingy

Tournament

OJT

Project

Temple things.

& today i thought i can relax for th whole day.

plssssssssssssss.Stop Giving Problem To Us.

everything have stop and you alway pull things out.

or I can say, you deserve that.

if dad gonna divorce with you, i'll shut my mouth w/o helping!

I MEANT IT.

I know dad has been tolerating with you for all your AP.

but you will nv think for others.

you will only suspect here & there-making us PEK CHEK!

I can't be bothered with your stuff cos i am gonna take care of my life.

2009-06-15T01:31:00.000+08:00

2nd OJT........

reach home ard 1 & time now is 1.31 am. just finish doing my stuff.

i am super duper active today luhs (=

is all out of sudden de-ok. hahaas

supper with Joy ; Lester ; Wan Ting at Jalan Kayu.

1 lime juice , 1 onion prata & doom prata for me xD

OJT- wahssssssssssssssss, is freaking tire ok.

didn manage to msg my loved-ones and didn manage to get a rest.

what i am doing is. walk here&there doing those final testing.

I learn alot of new things lahs.

but on th 9th day of OJT, i got a FINAL TEST.

if pass, i got my CERTIFICATE, if fail-die lorhs. carry on for my OJT.

Hopefully I can get my OJT CERT!

hahaas xD

stupid thinking of yours lahs.

what do you mean by "All Your Thing Is Mine huhs?"

your things is all yours. so i wont think of using your money or wad ok!

keep that mindset of yours horhs.

alright mood today. not sad & not emo xD

sorry for not replying msg to you guys )=

Jian Yi

Ben

Nick

Louis

real sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyy );

training today & got lots of things to learn. so didn manage to reply your msg )=

2009-06-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

1st OJT........

home-ed sweet home (= finally yeah.

OJT today. freaking tire lurhs.

cried half way when im OJT. cause i feel v bad that i cant go for my ah gong birthday.

but i make sure i will pei him when he is having his operation 10 days later.

I SWEAR I WILL.

& thanks for today cum ytd- bcos of you;i given up on you (=

thats wad everybody is wishing for.

so that I won't cry every night.

but still i didn manage to tell you whats my feel for you.

cause time is not right at th moment .

like what i've said.

if you were to love th guy, it hurts.

but in another way round, if guy were to love you more-

things will be diff. feeling will be diff too.

so, i am really really thinking whether to accept him or not.

& i am not making use of him. i just scare that i will hurt him in future.

as for th guy i like, i still got feeling but i will give up not bcos he done something wrong.

is i can't afford to cry myself every single night.

thinking of him, tears rolled off without any reasons.

i know is not crush or other things. giving up cos there is no miracle!

~~Being Loved Is Better Than Loving Him.~~
isn't that true?

2009-06-11T19:31:00.001+08:00

OJT tml! (=

tiring day for me lurhs! )=

tml gonna wake up at 5 & leave my hse at 5.45 for work. IS MORNING OK.

im so so so sad that i can attend my grandfather birthday which held on Saturday.

& again, i went for my facial wash at Causeway Point.

New York Skin Solution

Fuck them lahs! appointment at 3 end up ask me go back at 3.30

im tire ok! but they are so lucky that i didn give my attitude.

went to my grandma hse after th facial wash.

have patience feeding Baby. play & feed him. really took look of time lorhs.

after feeding Baby, homed sweet home (=

& right now, i am blogging my daily activities as usual xD

VACATION START (= hooray!

till Sept 5

can work again! happyhappy.

2009-06-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

fuck everything!

today is th ever worse day i have ever had!

trust me.

cried out cos I AM OUT FOR TH SELECTION.

i've tried all my best & still i can't get in.

is alright. i will be fine few weeks time.

cos of my knee problem,everybody is happy that i am not selected.

but for me, I AM TOTALLY DOWN.

no mood for everything little thing now & then!

i cry and so! i can't do anything else.

being strong is what i gonna do. time is needed for sure.

& i just HATE MY KNEE PROBLEM TO CORE OK!

ALL THE BEST TO MY FELLOW FRIENDS & TEAM-MATE

except for th SETTER & THAT BITCH;thDOG

2009-06-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

I DID IT! (=

yeah. & i did it (= hahaas.

whole day nv think of him. not like th past few days.

went to my grandma hse & aunt hse after that (=

I Am Super Duper Hungry lorhs!

had a majong game just now & i win. hahaas.

but is only 20 bucks. better than nothing lahs. right?

wads yours means yours. that wad i keep telling myself.

tml gonna go sch & rush my stupid project ):

anyway, is alright. I know i can handle it.

my eyes is swollen. cry to make myself sleep every night.

poor thing huhs )=

i am sorry that i can't control my attitude&emotion.

trying hard to setle down myself asap.

2009-06-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday !

Happy Birthday to NUT NUT "gong ah" xD

went to her party at yewtee today.

frankly speaking, I am not in th good mood for th whole day.

even if I dont speak out, Didi's they all know why i suddenly cry out.

i am sorry. somehow i feel like i ruin th party of yours.

sorry )=

but bcos of you ppl, i try not to cry. thanks for Didi's&Rachel advise (=

dad gave me curfew again.

is alright cos i know he is worried for me. have to reach home by 9.30

every single day. (=

aft this year, he make a promise to me saying that-

He will buy a car for me after i take my licence (= "Honda Jazz"

& im otw aiming for that litte piece of cert* xP

2009-06-05T14:38:00.001+08:00

I am...!

yeah. true friends of mine know what I am doing recently (=

and they sure know what am I thinking too )=

and i gonna say that again - "I MISS HIM HELL LOTS"

wahssssssssssss, i cried again.

and fuck those bastard malay guys & that bitch ok!

some malays (guys) are so childish & love to create trouble for nothing.

fuck lahs! beat xiaolong for nothing huhs?! You guys deserve a bit of lesson from him.

ang kong siao fight again. but this time round i didn blame him.

was thinking whether he got injure not (=

2009-06-04T14:38:00.000+08:00

hateMYSELF?!

alright! i am lazy to post this few days.

don't know why this few days keep on giving xiao jie pi qi to everybody!

wad th fuck am i doing?

i am v v v sorry to those who get scolded & nag by me. i'm real sorry.

i'll handle my emotion asap (:

Note:

fuck you & me!

I'm missing you now & then!

2009-05-30T14:38:00.000+08:00

missinqYOU;now

you break your promise ok!

i hate that lahs. you should know IDL it. ):

sorry that i fa xiao jie pi qi on you.

you should know th reason lahs (:

i am not special or a good girl. why you guys will nv give up on me?

please, i only want him&only.

no-more guys for me.

Give Up On Me, Will You?

2009-05-29T14:38:00.000+08:00

liesofYOURs!

not feelinq well again!

wtf, i just want to be healthy.

vomitted today. paisei lorhs. ):

throw my face donno till where siol.

& again i got my xiao jie pi qi.

thanks to you lahorhs

i dono y i get moody swing when i think of you.

is enough huhs.........

i'll get angry&jealous cos of you, but i'll be more worried&sad when you are feelinq weak.

you will feel weak-thats make me sad.

whether you will get hurt or not-i will be worry.

but i trust you. cause i believe you can handle it.

u've once ask me do i love you, yes!. i did- but i lied.

regreted for telling lies to you):

Note:

how? can i tell you th truth?

2009-05-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

Claudia is HURT ):

lazy to blog this few days. so sorry. having my training & going gym this few days.

no matter how pain my muscle, i still force&train myself to the highest limit of what

i can (:

thursday,when to gym & run for hours plus.freakinq tire and killing myself. cause i have

been slacking for about 6 to 9 mths + lorhs. now suddenly train, really cannot take it.

but for the sake of tournament and losing weight, i force myself to take it ):

after hours of gym, went to BB ITE for training. wahs, so fun ok! got "scarescare" also.

yesterday more worse. before the match, went to have warm-up&play abit of vb for

at least 6 hours plus. 1st match we win & lost the 2nd match. thanks to the fuckin cb ok!

fuck her la dey, keep on snatching my

ball when the ball is not hers. if it was 1 or 2 balls, i am anything. fuck her upside down la.

is actually more than 5 balls ok. 1st time see so "action,lousy,slacking,cb kia" de player.

hey peeps! i won't say her name cause she know who is she .

2008-10-23T17:15:00.000+08:00

fuck th CPU lahs

first time my leg injre cause of the CPU in my class.

&guess how bad my friends are.

everybody was laughing at me when i cried & shout due to the pain!

fuck the CPU lahs. whole thing drop on my leg. end up my leg is now

RED&SWOLLEN&BLUE BLACK

classmates was like

"OMFG,what happen siol" & they laugh like nobody fucking business.

but after the class,they did ask how was my leg.

&see whether is serious not. what i scare is "SWOLLEN".sure kana

scolding for not being careful. haish,what a bad day for me ); sobbing lahorhs.